ten things that I am thinking right now, at this moment

[seraphcelene]

1. I really do need to find a real job.

2. I'd like to teach Community College. I admit to being equal parts excited and scared spitless by the idea.

3. I wish that I were more clever.

4. What, I wonder, is my Scandinavian Love God up to? He was such a special treat.

5. You really can't find everyone you ever knew on Myspace.

6. See number 3.

7. Writer's block sucks.

8. My job sucks. Review number 1.

9. The whole entire LJ/SixApart/Fandom Flies thing has left me bitter and angry. Like the idiot that I am, I took everyone seriously and left LJ. Now I'm on IJ where NO ONE ELSE IS!

10. I'm seriously considering deleting both jounrals. See number 9. (Not that anyone will actually miss me.)

Bonus 11: I am being serious, melodramatic and whiny. I already know that, thanks. Where the fcuk is my SLG? See number 4. I'm obsessing over the last best period of my life, 2003 - 2004.

Comments

[thawrecka]

(a) I would miss you.

(b) You're clever enough! If you were more clever you'd be too intimidating for me.

[seraphcelene]

You're a sweetheart, thanks! *hugs*

I'm in a weird OMG freakout mood. Birthday past and gray hairs are agrowing in faster than I can get things done. I've been non-commenty and avoidy and LJ has reciprocated and therefore I am full o' woe.

Working on plans o' action, so hopefully things will perk up soon!

[chrisleeoctaves.livejournal.com]

10. I'm seriously considering deleting both jounrals. See number 9. (Not that anyone will actually miss me.)

Um. I would miss you.

I actually just paid for a year's LJ time because when my paid time expired I had all these wonky adds on my book and IWRY journals and I couldn't have that!

Please don't go anywhere.

[seraphcelene]

*sigh*

I'm all in arms. Not posting and slimmly commenting.

I'm being silly and dramatic and every time I think of actually deleting the things, I wonder where I will post my Jossverse fic and still get comments.

I am such a whore for feedback. ;)

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

I would miss you.

I admit, I hardly ever go onto IJ partly because it's blocked at work.

[seraphcelene]

Thank you. I'm feeling sorry for me. It's not a pretty color, btw, I do not wear it well. IJ is a world of empty and I guess I'll go to cross-posting because I like my icons and feeds over there, but most of the kids are over here.

*sigh*

[viciouswishes.livejournal.com]

I think only a few people really left LJ for IJ and they were the few, but very vocal minority. I don't think the IJ is a good solution.

[seraphcelene]

I don't like making a statement and then not backing it up. I like IJ. I like that I get oodles of icons for little to no money, there aren't a shit load of layouts for me to loose my mind over (I can never make a choice when I am spoiled for choices).

No solution is a good solution if the populace doesn't support the change and what I've found is that as vocal as everyone was about being upset with policies, the number of people actually affecting a change, personally or globally wasn't all that large. There were a key few, it seemed, leading the charge and then there were the documentarians and then the rabble waving pitchforks (I was one of those) and the people who didn't really care or were disinterested or who weren't going to move or change unless there were some sort of communal decision made by Fandom.

Me being me, I left because I was irritated by the policies, but also by the indecision of the users who were all waiting for their FL to move. "I'll go where fandom goes" was the shourt heard round the nets. Problem was that fandom wasn't moving.

So, here I am, back at the beginning, contemplating another shift or permanent deletion because I'm tired of the politics and posturing. As Yoda once said, "Do or do not do, there is no try." Meaning I should get to hitting the delete key or drop the subject all together. At the moment, I'm skipping over all politicial debate and/or conversation. So, no PoC, no LJ/6A, no religious rights, etc. I keep wondering when LJ got to be such a chore for me.

[diachrony.livejournal.com]

I would miss you lots. Please don't delete both journals.

I haven't been around IJ much the past several weeks only because I have been obsessed with my love life. It's taking up time. That's a good reason, isn't it? And I've been scrambling to keep up with people everywhere - LJ too, and email - so everything is behind.

I think if 6A had not sold LJ, more people would have come to IJ, but the sale meant people had more reason to stick as the crappy management's leaving and the new management may be better - even lots better - who knows yet.

You *are* clever. Very clever.

I'm on myspace. But I hate myspace.

You need a new Scandinavian Love God!

[seraphcelene]

Oh, mama!! You have totally legitimate reasons for absence. You're in love. Love gives you many brownie points. Besides, this is LJ, this is fandom, this is *supposed* to be fun.

It's just not right now and that just may be what was going to happen ultimately. Maybe it's the end of an era for me. Maybe I hit the high point with this whole blogging thing and now I'm reaching the natural end of my tenure here. It's been, like, three or four years, after all. WOW!

Meanwhile, I'm not deleting anything. I'll be hanging around. Cross-posting, most likely, instead of posting primarily to IJ. Aiya! Work.

I don't like myspace, either. So very undynamic.

I TOTALLY need a new Scandinavian Love God. Maybe his name could be Lars or Gunner or Axel. That might be fun.

[diachrony.livejournal.com]

Just sent you an email from my new gmail acct.

(I still have the yahoo and AOL and all that - just using gmail most lately).

♥

[darlas-mom.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetheart, I'm so sorry that work is being awful and that you're blocked and all the rest of it. I know how frustrating that can be, and I know how isolating it can feel to post and not hear any shouts back across the ether. I know I've been sucking at said shouts back, but please don't think that means I wouldn't miss you. Because I would.

I actually cross-post every day to four separate journals (LJ, IJ, GJ and JF), but I pretty much only keep up with my LJ flist, because that's where most of the people are. I don't even bother checking JF or GJ at all...those flists are full of nothing but tumble weeds. IJ, I check once or twice A MONTH, because I feel guilty and remember that people I really adore actually did go over there.

I got prepared for an exodus, but one never really happened. I knew fandom wouldn't move to an unified place, but I thought more of my flist would go than actually did. Since 75% of journaling for me at all is actually in keeping up with other people and getting actual comments on my entries, I ended up staying where I got the most of those things.

If you want to chat or anything, I'm pretty much always around. I feel dreadful now that I've neglected you.

[seraphcelene]

I'm being sad and mildly pathetic and melodramatic. I do it about twice a year, I think. *sigh*

I take things way too seriously at times and so here I am again. No big, I'll move the few posts exclusive to IJ over here and begin cross-posting from there. I like the communities and feeds and icons at IJ. Plus Glossing and tkp are over yonder, so it will stay open and I shall continue to make an attmept to post to both.

I am amazed by your posting across four journals. That's dedication. I had reserved a spot on GJ, but as no one really moved over there and with the sudden announcement by the administrators to no longer maintain, update or otherwise work on improving the service, I deleted it.

So, I think you're right. My interest in journalling is about the community and the community seems to be here. What are you gonna do...