the best laid plans of mice and men
Mar. 2nd, 2025 10:27 amI keep making plans to get back into DW just as a way to get my thoughts out and down, and then I don't follow-through. Life is life-ing as per usual and its hard to find the focus. If I'm honest, its even worse as we watch the chaos on the federal level as the current administration actively works to undermine the stability of the government and create a dictatorship from the evocation of executive orders as a means of governing. Congress is complicit in the attempt and I can't quite understand why. You're duly elected officials and you're completely willing to ceded your authority to the executive branch and its shadow king?
When not trying to figure out the reasons for intentionally eroding our democracy that are not apocalyptic, I've been writing. I feel like the novel is going well except for the lack of time I have to work on it. Like much of corporate America, the micro-managing overlords at my company required that we be back in the office Mon-Fri for the day. That means I once again have a two hour commute. I don't work late anymore because the 2+ hours I used to work past 8 hours now belongs to my commute. It means I am perpetually behind but I'm over it, honestly. Also trying to get in the gym more (my doctor basically called me fat although all of my blood work trends towards great and always has). I mapped a pie with 24 hours on it and I have in the neighborhood of 5 hours of life administration time to eat, shower, clean, pay bills, read and write. I dropped social media except on one day of the weekend (literally took IG off my phone) and I'm not keeping up with any shows so that when I do have a corner of time its dedicated to writing.
Unfortunately, it can take me more than 2 hours to find a rhythm and by then, it's bed time.
And then there are days like today where I am just tired, so that all I want to do is go back to sleep. Focusing is hard. I still have so many things to do, so I'm writing this instead of writing into the MSS.
When not trying to figure out the reasons for intentionally eroding our democracy that are not apocalyptic, I've been writing. I feel like the novel is going well except for the lack of time I have to work on it. Like much of corporate America, the micro-managing overlords at my company required that we be back in the office Mon-Fri for the day. That means I once again have a two hour commute. I don't work late anymore because the 2+ hours I used to work past 8 hours now belongs to my commute. It means I am perpetually behind but I'm over it, honestly. Also trying to get in the gym more (my doctor basically called me fat although all of my blood work trends towards great and always has). I mapped a pie with 24 hours on it and I have in the neighborhood of 5 hours of life administration time to eat, shower, clean, pay bills, read and write. I dropped social media except on one day of the weekend (literally took IG off my phone) and I'm not keeping up with any shows so that when I do have a corner of time its dedicated to writing.
Unfortunately, it can take me more than 2 hours to find a rhythm and by then, it's bed time.
And then there are days like today where I am just tired, so that all I want to do is go back to sleep. Focusing is hard. I still have so many things to do, so I'm writing this instead of writing into the MSS.