nostalgia and what right now doesn't get quite right ...

[seraphcelene]

I miss you guys.

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[gloss]

I miss you, bb! <333

[thawrecka]

♥

[seraphcelene]

:( I always TRY to look forward, move forward. LJ and fandom seem so far away but were so formative and I miss the community. I try to be here more but life gets getting in the way. Only so much time in the day for the few things I can get through.

How ARE YOU?!!?

I'm going to pay the price for this tomorrow cause I should be in bed. :/

[seraphcelene]

How are you?!?!?!? How is life and writing?

[thawrecka]

Life is just trundling along. I haven't written original fiction in a while, or looked at any of my Word docs for my manuscript in months, but I've been writing fanfic like crazy.

You?

[seraphcelene]

I'm glad that life is trundling along! That implies forward momentum. Forward momentum is very good! I have always 100% been in the camp that believes fanfiction or original fiction, it's all worth it! Creativity!! HUZZAH!

I am writing not fanfiction, but I miss it so much. There was a low stakes, navel gaze-y, disinterest in how my writing fit into the fandom discourse as a whole that allowed me to write all the things just because I wanted to. Working on original fiction has been a whirlwind because the question of audience always pops up and I find that question utterly exhausting. I miss talking craft and theory and fandom interpretation. I think that perhaps changes in social media may have made fandom very different these days, but I miss those long-winded essays about characters, etc. Both writing them and reading them.

Anyway, starting notes on my next MS. The current MS is maybe 75-80% done. I broke some things on purpose in this most recent revision pass, and now I'm trying to fix them. In retrospect, that struggle has everything to do with me managing other people's imagined expectations. I am now back to writing what I want to write and not what I think people will want to read.

Interesting how very different those two things are.

Work is trash. But then work is always trash. Trying to not let that get in the way of my writing goals!! I want to announce on here how I got a publishing deal one day!

[thawrecka]

I feel more like I'm circling in place. Ah, well, such is life.

Writing fanfiction does feel so low stakes in comparison to original fiction. I have never cared if my fic was cool or popular or what the people wanted, but when I was trying to write original fiction and submitting it I was constantly aware of how bad I was at writing things that were mainstream or marketable. It was exhausting!

I'm hoping for the best for you! You can knock that MS out of the park! (I'm not sure if that metaphor makes sense 😂) I believe you can get that publishing deal!

[lynnenne]

We miss you too!!! I sent you an email to wish you Happy Birthday, did it make its way through to you? If not, Happy Belated Birthday!

I've been sooooo busy lately. I'm directing a play for an amateur theatre troupe, my first time directing! They wrote the script themselves (it's a murder mystery) but the first act was soooo boring that I had to rewrite the whole thing. Now I'm working with a dozen people who have never done theatre in their lives, which is CRAZY but it's a hoot!

Drove a few hours with my niece to see the total solar eclipse. I've seen partial eclipses before but never totality. It was the coolest thing I've ever seen in my life, no exaggeration. And the weather was perfect for viewing! We had a blast.

Been on Tumblr most every day following the IwtV fandom. The new season starts May 12 and I am psyched!

I'm excited that you're writing fanfic again! Which fandoms? How's every other thing?

*HUGS*

EDIT: Whoops, it's one of your DW friends who's writing fanfic, not you. Reading is hard.

[seraphcelene]

Lynne! I went checking and I didn't find and email. There was, however, a period of time in which I went ham on all of my email addresses deleting things and trying to corral the inboxes. It is possible that I accidentally deleted it. I have a fear that I may have done that to a lot of things unintentionally.

And Thank you!!!!! My birthday was lovely- I had a massage and lunch and free cake.

I'm such a homebody. I love when people get out into the community and get into shenanigans. Community theater sounds amazing. Fun and frustrating all at once.

California got next to none of the eclipse. I actually missed it on account that it was so subtle and I was at work. I thought I would notice the change in the light, but I as working ... and I totally didn't. I heard the the temper dropped as well during the eclipse which is CRAZY but makes perfect sense. It's such a cool thing to take part in.

And IwtV! That story you wrote was *chef's kiss*!! I'm excited for the new season, as well. Bummed that the original Claudia won't be back but also open to the change. There were so many dazzling things about the first season. I'm really, really, really hoping that it maintains that elegance and drama.

[lynnenne]

Have you seen the S2 trailers? They kick ass!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gEmfMte3L4A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w1DNtxOO0DI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H4tR8dYPb3A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4wT4QihIavo

I'll miss Bailey Bass, too, but Delainey Hayles looks like she'll be amazing in the role.

[lynnenne]

Are you near NYC? There’s an advanced screening of 2.01 with the cast on May 1, and I have 2 tickets. Wanna go?

You might need to carry me out of the auditorium after I see Jacob in person. 😄

[seraphcelene]

I wish!! I'm in Los Angeles! I would SOOOOO GOOO to that. LOL. I just went to a screening for Turtles All the Way Down and it was awesome to see John Green in person. I definitely fangirl-ed a little bit.

[lynnenne]

That sounds like a blast! Maybe I'll fly down to L.A. for a screening one of these days. I haven't been there in years, so I'm probably due for a revisit.