ok ... still not dead ... mostly

[seraphcelene]

Good Luck to everyone taking part in NaNoWriMo this year. I am not one of them,

After some research,I have deduced that my crazy, wacky work schedule is leaving completely sleep deprived. The insanely early hours for someone who is naturally a night owl are also contributing to my total dysfunction and lack of creativity. I so off the writing train that its not even funny ... although it makes a certain amount of sense. I discovered that most night owls experience a peak in brain activity beginning around 9pm and of course I am one of those people. I always worked best from 9pm to 3am. Unfortunately, my current work schedule has me awake from 4.30 am to 10pm. I really should be in bed by 8.30 to get a full night's sleep but that is SO NOT EVER GOING TO HAPPEN. Let's be honest.

Anyway ...

I miss hanging out at LJ. I miss writing. ANYTHING. I totally miss my brain. And I'm totally horny for my creativity. Where hast thou went, Agatha?! You can't still be mad! Sheesh ...

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[lettered.livejournal.com]

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I can't believe you just said you were horny for your creativity. You're cute as a button. One day I shall write a fic about you and Agatha!

I'm sorry you're not getting enough sleep. That sucks so much. We miss you too!

[seraphcelene]

I totally stole that line from Gilda Radner: "I can always be distracted by love, but eventually I get horny for my creativity." It seemed apropos, except about the love part. It took me forever to figure out why I was feeling so out of sorts, just mentally, emotionally and physically. Then I was having a conversation and started looking into some information about night owls and then came across all kinds of things that made total sense. Do you know that if I write in the daytime inevitably what I have written gets trashed? I can read and made notes and do editing in the day, but when it comes to being actually creative and writing full steam ahead with both guns blazing then its always done between 9pm and 3am.

It's crazy.

Then there's the whole sleep thing because no matter how hard I try, inexplicably, I am awake at 10 at night. Just up. For no real reason except that I am awake and my brain wants to do things.

Wow. But that's okay. I am shifting into job mode again and looking for something that's more like regular hours. School isn't working out so well. They've cut so many classes that it's hard to get a schedule together that works and isn't full of me taking classes just because. There was also some weird thing with my fin aid because I am a post-bac and they didn't allot any grants for this year. I can take loans but I don't want that. Then they raised tuition by something like 20% and that nixed the idea of even attempting to pay for it out-of-pocket. Right now just doesn't seem to be like a good time. Plus if I'm not in school then my repayment kicks in and that combined with me having food and stuff means that I need a real job again. *sigh*

It's not all bad because I have been looking and being very careful about it and I've found quite a few jobs on campuses that could potentially combine my love of the academic environment with my kick ass organizational administrator skills. Keep your fingers crossed. I'm submitting the resume to a couple tonight.

Anwhos ... how are you?! What's the news? I see you're jamming away with the writing and you've got publication dates coming up for next year. (I totally googled you!)

[lettered.livejournal.com]

Keep your fingers crossed.

Oh man, I am. I hope it works out. That is so sucky about school! I'm really sorry. Those jobs sound interesting though! I want you to get to do the cool things you want! Oy.

I know what you mean about when-your-brain-is-most-active. I tend to be a lot more functional later in the day, though your window is way later than mine. I hate how the people who are more able to cope with mornings have a slight edge over me, because I really believe that while you can work on it to make yourself compute better at certain times, there are natural chemistry things at work.

I'm good. I've been writing a lot lot lot of fic, which is so nice! Dunno if I told you about this; K got divorced and we moved, which was a good thing for both of us. While the publication thing is awesome, our editor totally sucks so at this point I'm not even sure I believe I have a book coming out . . .

[seraphcelene]

Yeah, There are totally natural chemistry things at work. I read a lot about being a night owl and was rather surprised to find that they've found measurable differences in brain activity between night owls and morning larks. Many night owls have a spike in brain activity around 9pm while their earlier counterparts are more excitable at 9am and diminish as the day wears on. The nervous system literally functions differently.

It's nice to know that I'm not just morning lazy. Cause even when I shift my schedule waking up remains difficult. The downside is also that I am perpetually sleep deprived. My body is in a complete state of confusion. I start wanting to write and open up ye olde laptop only to find that it's too late and I have to go to bed or I'm too tired to actually write and go to bed.

I had heard about K, to which I am very, very sorry. I hope she's dealing okay. I have gifts for you guys that one day will make it into the mail, although I would much rather deliver them in person. (Another reason to keep your fingers crossed for a new job cause then I'd maybe have money to travel!) Send me your new address if you don't mind because I have Xmas cards and I can, at least, send those out.

Sorry to hear about your editor because I can only imagine that makes things severely tough. Editors are supposed to help ease the process, I thought. But you have a book coming out, you have to! The Internets have told me so!! *maniacal grin* Please inform your editor that he/she oughtn't make a liar out of the interwebz.