I wish that I could remember how to write.
I wish that I could recall the business of putting pen to paper and blindly watching the ink unravel itself across a surface of textured napkin and smooth paper, squished onto envelopes and yellow post-it notes. Pieces of me fragmented and scattered with hubristic abandon around the house. Crammed into notebooks, stuck to dresser drawers and the doors of cabinets.
Even if I gather them up, now they are just noise in my hands, pre-celluloid images without reference. Tattered, beggared beginnings and a few corners without a story.
I wish that I could recall the business of putting pen to paper and blindly watching the ink unravel itself across a surface of textured napkin and smooth paper, squished onto envelopes and yellow post-it notes. Pieces of me fragmented and scattered with hubristic abandon around the house. Crammed into notebooks, stuck to dresser drawers and the doors of cabinets.
Even if I gather them up, now they are just noise in my hands, pre-celluloid images without reference. Tattered, beggared beginnings and a few corners without a story.
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Date: 2008-11-10 07:49 pm (UTC)From:Or, a Zack Addy once said, "apparently, you need someone to recite your job description in a deep, African-American tone."
:)
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Date: 2008-11-10 08:21 pm (UTC)From:ROTFL!! I love that!!
*sigh*
I WISH that we had that ability: to see ourselves and the things we do from someone else's perspective entirely, without expectation or bias. That would be awesome. To be able to do that for just one day.
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Date: 2008-11-10 11:01 pm (UTC)From:It's so difficult for writers to comfort each other, I think. It would certainly be nice (and true) for *me* to say that even when you're stuck and suffering you express that empty pain so beautifully, but it doesn't actually help you at all.
I got nothin'. No super-vision. Not even a creamy chicken casserole or a bottle of Grey Goose. But if I did, I'd share it with you.
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Date: 2008-11-11 05:54 am (UTC)From:So. Stupid. Really.
But thank you!! I'd take your creamy chicken casserole or Grey Goose, if you had it and be glad to share the meal. :)