I was not made for waiting

Having zero control is frustrating and difficult. All of the applications are in. All of the back-up documentation is in. I am just waiting! My future is in someone else's hands. This is HARD, you guys! I can't effectively influence anything at this point. I'm just waiting to see if they let me in and if they do, how much money they will give/loan me.

On top of all that, I missed my EDD interview by seconds. I called and left a message and now I am waiting for them to call me back. Really, day?! REALLY?! I was riding high on my new decisions and being all proactive and stuff and then this. I need a nap, only I kind of need to be up right now. ARGH!!!!