Now I just feel really humbled. You just--I don't know, you really make me feel like not only my effort on this piece but my efforts as a writer are really justified, you know, and since that's who I want to be I feel...I feel very confident. And somehow just having got lost my job that's extremely cool. I feel as if the world is opening up to me again and that is a very nice feeling. Thanks for helping me like that--it's so much more than just feel-goodingness to know I wrote something that could make you feel this way.
I actually didn't find it that difficult to write--I mean, I put a *lot* of effort into it but I didn't find it that difficult emotionally, but I think that's because when I first came to really start trying to understand Connor, that's when I had emotional difficulty. He caught me up for months. To me he's what should be the very best of humanity manipulated into it's very worst, you know? 'Cause sure he's some vamp's kid in some campy show played by a cute girly boy, but fiction always becomes so much for and this character allowed for that and...your comments are making me ramble on so hard right now.
And you make a lot of sense here because this, especially this: Connor's defensiveness, the defensiveness that we as readers are privileged to see past, is the most cutting sort of nakedness there is. is what I was going for. I did want *that* to be hard to read.
It really touches me deeply that this touched you so deeply. Thank you so much for going through the time and the effort to express it. It means so much to me.
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Date: 2007-04-18 10:24 pm (UTC)From:Now I just feel really humbled. You just--I don't know, you really make me feel like not only my effort on this piece but my efforts as a writer are really justified, you know, and since that's who I want to be I feel...I feel very confident. And somehow just having got lost my job that's extremely cool. I feel as if the world is opening up to me again and that is a very nice feeling. Thanks for helping me like that--it's so much more than just feel-goodingness to know I wrote something that could make you feel this way.
I actually didn't find it that difficult to write--I mean, I put a *lot* of effort into it but I didn't find it that difficult emotionally, but I think that's because when I first came to really start trying to understand Connor, that's when I had emotional difficulty. He caught me up for months. To me he's what should be the very best of humanity manipulated into it's very worst, you know? 'Cause sure he's some vamp's kid in some campy show played by a cute girly boy, but fiction always becomes so much for and this character allowed for that and...your comments are making me ramble on so hard right now.
And you make a lot of sense here because this, especially this:
Connor's defensiveness, the defensiveness that we as readers are privileged to see past, is the most cutting sort of nakedness there is.
is what I was going for. I did want *that* to be hard to read.
It really touches me deeply that this touched you so deeply. Thank you so much for going through the time and the effort to express it. It means so much to me.
How did your doctor's appointment go?