Fandom is eating my brain

[seraphcelene]

I am CONSUMED with ficish thoughts and right now it drives me crazy that I actually have to sing for my supper, work for the man, do the 9 to 5 in order to support myself. I would much rather be at home plotting and writing. That would require independent wealth or a sugar daddy patron.

I have to write BU on the covers of my deposits and all morning I keep writing BA. Obviously you know where *my* mind is.

There are three different fic ideas running amok in my brain, one of which is already in production. I'm finishing the post-NFA Angel Hell fic that I started last year for the lynnevitational. I'm re-watching episodes of Angel and it's making everything that I want to do make sense. I'm getting really excited about finishing it.

I've also got D/B/A Xmas fic trying to burst through the front of my brain. It won't go away. I meant to write it in December but it never really worked itself out, but NOW!! Now!

It's tentatively titled Someday and it's post-Chosen, post-NFA Xmas fic with angst and a kind of happily ever after and it's B/A, D/A, B/D, possibly S/D. Good lord, it's looking looonnnggg. That could be really challenging. Of course, knowing me, I'll whittle it down right quick.

The third piece is the Mal/Inara Yule drabble that I owe diachrony. Of course now it's trying to turn itself into a proper fic and I don't know what to do. Never fear, dio! I will get it done.

Meanwhile, I have non-Buffy/fic related work to do. I've still got six hours to get through and then two more at the gym before I can get home to my computer.

Wow, talk about serious suckage.

Comments

[lettered.livejournal.com]

My squee is endless. I have endless squee. eeeeee!

I loved what I read of your Angel Hell fic. I'm so glad you're going to finish it.

About the D/B/A. Is that Darla, or Dawn? I assume Dawn. ZOMG SISTER SLASH!!! Either way: Eeeee! *hops up and down*

[darlas-mom.livejournal.com]

I'm re-watching episodes of Angel and it's making everything that I want to do make sense. I'm getting really excited about finishing it

I LOVE when that happens!

It's tentatively titled Someday and it's post-Chosen, post-NFA Xmas fic with angst and a kind of happily ever after and it's B/A, D/A, B/D, possibly S/D. Good lord, it's looking looonnnggg. That could be really challenging. Of course, knowing me, I'll whittle it down right quick.

Um. Which D? 'Cause either way it sounds interesting.

[seraphcelene]

Angel in Hell has an actual point now and not just the vague I had before and I am SO excited by that. I can barely sit still when I think about it.

Is that Darla, or Dawn? I assume Dawn. ZOMG SISTER SLASH!!!

*facepalm* Yeah. I forgot D as in Darla and that's really silly considering last night *all* that I was watching were the Darla/Angel eps from Angel S2.

That would be D as in Dawn. It won't be too slashy, I hope. More subtextual slash than anything else. At least that's the way I plan it, but once the writing starts ANY old thing can happen.

I'm excited, too. But I don't have enough *hands*!!! Everything wants to be written Right Now and although I am a hell of a multi-tasker, I can only type one story at a time.

[seraphcelene]

I haven't re-watched Angel in AGES and AGES. I forgot how much I totally LOVED that show and all the interactions and the group dynamic and CORDELIA!! I had Such the love for Cordelia. My heart hurt when they took her away.

So. Happy. Only I don't have Season 5 and that might be a problem when we get to the Fred section.

Aiya!!

And it's D as in Dawn. Sorry about that. Forgot Darla's a D also. Dawn fic! Yay Dawn!! I haven't written Dawn in a long time. I think the last thing was Concerning Flight or To the Waters and the Wild, although that one was less about Dawn then it was about the OC. Gee Whiz. How exciting.

[darlas-mom.livejournal.com]

Interestingly, I didn't even think of Dawn. I was thinking either Darla or Drusilla. ::shakes head at my silliness::

You don't have S5? OMG! Please tell me you've at least seen it. I can hook you up with some of it (I've got "Conviction," "Just Rewards," "Unleashed," "Destiny," "Lineage," "Soul Purpose," "You're Welcome," "Shells" and "Time Bomb" all already ripped to my computer) but none of those are really the good Fred eps. Hmmm. I will see what else I can dig up.

[lettered.livejournal.com]

I can barely sit still when I think about it.

Awesome. I know and love that feeling!

I read it as Dawn, got SO EXCITED about the B/D, then realized it might be Darla and thought it would be bad form to splooge all over about wanting sister!sex if it was Darla. But anyway, even if it is not super slashy, I'd be happy at even a *hint* of it. I can't help it that I am incesty and wrong. I've always wanted to write a B/A/D (bad, hahahaha) but the only things I could think of were smut upon endless smut.

I'm also excited about the prospect of a longer fic from you. But even if you trim it down, I'm still excited.

Stephen King has like, a room with 4 comps, or something, with a novel on each comp, and he just moves from one to the other every time he feels so inspired. I wish I had that. Um. Anyway! I always have so many ideas, but I very rarely want to work on any of them. I'm so glad to hear you're in the writing mood, even though you have your job and only two hands and stuff. *pets*

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

Buffy/Dawn is normally the only pairing I refuse to read, but if you wrote it, I'd go there.

[diachrony.livejournal.com]

Wow, I'm a dork. I was reading all your initials and slashes starting out thinking Dawn, then I got to S/D and there I thought it meant Drusilla. Kind of "All different 'D's here..."

Of course I've read Spawn, so my mental hop there didn't really make sense. I bet it's just 'cause I really like Dru. That's my excuse!

Um, so very slashy. Uh, sisters? ::gulp::

Hee ... of course I'll read it. And you said something about a happy ending, even. ::is shocked:: ;)

Take the time you need on Mal/Inara ... and if it wants to be a longer fic, yay!!

[thawrecka]

I, on the other hand, can't manage to get any real fic ideas, just vague formless thoughts of what I might like to write. Alas.

[seraphcelene]

Oh, I am skeered to write long fic, but it's feeling that way. Like it's going to take a minute to get to the end. A HAPPY end, let's be reminded. Gee whiz!

I can't help it that I am incesty and wrong.

Scarily, enough sometimes that's some of the best stuff. Glossing's Bath and a Story is Angel/Connor that hurts so very, very good. If you haven't read it... go go go go.

I'm always scared to do it, worried that people will throw tomatoes and other over ripe fruits and vegetables. Although, I managed the teeniest hint in Love Song with Simon and River. Not that that's all that difficult considering those two.

If I could have a room full o' computers for me to play in OMG I would become a hermit and never ever come out into the world ever again. I'd have at least two computers for fic, one for fanart and one for vids. Then there'd have to be one to play The Sims on. I'd be pale and ashen for lack of sun and fat from lack of me walking anywhere.

I guess it's good that I don't have that sort of set-up.

[seraphcelene]

You don't have S5? OMG!

I KNOW!! Isn't that horrible?! I was living in New York at the time, during grad school and for some reason I didn't tape anything. So I don't have AtS Season 4 or BtVS Season 7 and that kinda sucks. When I got back I just didn't tape S because I didn't have season 4 and that was majorly silly, but my brain wasn't right, is all I can say.

I'm gonna see what I can come up with from S3, but I'm definitly going to need Shells for sure. Hole in the World as well, I think and You're Welcome. The rest I'm not sure yet.

[seraphcelene]

Would you really?! You know you're WAY too nice and encouraging and I promise to work REALLY hard to make it a REALLY good piece and the slashy sister bits will not be too slashy, but just enough ...

Now I feel pressure. But it a good, productive, I'm-gonna-knock-your-socks-off kind of way!

[seraphcelene]

I forgot how many D's there are in canon. I don't know where my head was -- just filled with the Dawn.

Take the time you need on Mal/Inara ... and if it wants to be a longer fic, yay!!

I want to make it good for you, baby!!

[seraphcelene]

Oh, pobrecita!! Never fear. It will come. I think I spent all last year like that. Vague, formless ideas that just floated in and out. I made notes about them, maybe wrote a paragraph or two and then abandonend the idea. I have scraps of paper everywhere with random bits of dialogue and what not. My bureau has sticky notes with story notes all over it.

Now I'm finally itching to write. Hell, I've cranked out two already and the year just started and that's not bad. But you've got a shiny new fandom AND a Mohinder icon ... I know you got good fic coming. I just know it!!!!

[seraphcelene]

glossing has more current site, I think:

http://www.exitseraphim.net/glossings/bath.html

[lettered.livejournal.com]

Well, if it does turn out to be long, I will be here to whinge to, to freak out to, to discuss, or to hold hands, if any of that is any help.

Definitely read Bath and a Story. Angels and Insects is probably still my favorite Angel/Connor. Though it's really Angel/Connor/Spike.

I do feel like if one's going to write it, one *has* to have proper warnings smeared all over the headers, but there are some people who really enjoy reading it (when it's well done). I am one of those people. While I've seen many interested in Simon/River, I've not seen many interested in Dawn/Buffy, which...I dunno why they're not. I think it could be hurty and hot and insightful if well done.

It's funny how having a room full of computers would feel so liberating. I mean, I didn't even come close to using all the memory/capabilities/etc of my laptop, but I still felt like I wanted a whole 'nother...venue every time I didn't something different. It's weird!

[seraphcelene]

Well, if it does turn out to be long, I will be here to whinge to, to freak out to, to discuss, or to hold hands, if any of that is any help.

See my hand right there, palm up. You can start holding right now. I sat in front of my computer last night for three hours before finally managing to crank out four pages of what's sure to be dross. BUT!! I got words down and the general idea of at least three scenes. Problem was that I had so much in my head that I didn't know what to do first or how to turn it into something more than just scenes in my head.

The Dawn/Buffy parts are going to be difficult, I think. I want to do something with obsession along the lines of Who Are You. I'm still working it out.

Be prepared for a draft to come your way when it's looking more the thing.

but I still felt like I wanted a whole 'nother...venue every time I didn't something different. It's weird!

I KNOW!!! It's like ... this is where I do this and that is where I do that and it's all compartmentalized and organized and makes no sense as to why it makes a certain kind of sense.

[lettered.livejournal.com]

Hee! *encourages* I would think if you can get all the scenes to screen you could start trying to figure out how to give it some kind of shape. But I never do it that way either; I always think must...have...shape and it's agonizing.

But yay, I'd *love* to look at it at *any* time you feel ready to share.

it's all compartmentalized and organized and makes no sense as to why it makes a certain kind of sense.

OMG EXACTLY.

[seraphcelene]

I would think if you can get all the scenes to screen you could start trying to figure out how to give it some kind of shape. But I never do it that way either; I always think must...have...shape and it's agonizing.

That is creepy ... you're in my head!! That's exactly what I was doing. I would write a sentence, a paragraph, a word and then delete everything because I didn't know what the whole thing should look like. I didn't have the tone or the rhythm, the shape was missing and it was frustrating. So I got nowhere very quickly until I finally decided to just write words. Very basic sentences and then it started to spin into something from there.