Fear, sometimes it gets the better of us

[seraphcelene]

Hi, kids.

I miss you.

I miss fandom.

Any fandom.

Work is long and I am exhausted.

I want to write, but it's been so long that I'm scared.

That's sad. Cause I miss writing.

I miss it a lot.

What if I'm bad at it. I mean, I was never great, but what if I'm really bad at it, now.

What if it is a thing that I can no longer do?

That's sad.

*sigh*

Comments

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

You can!

I miss you too.

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[seraphcelene]

Hola!!! I am totes going to do it! How are you?! I've been all inspired by your pins on Pinterest. So much awesomeness happening.

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

I miss you too! But it's wonderful to see you here.

[seraphcelene]

Hey mamita! How are you?! How're the kids? Conquering the world, I bet. I'm going to try and jump back on ye olde LJ horse. I am the proud new owner of a fancy phone and I have internets and everything! ;)

[minim_calibre]

You were great. You may be rusty. But the rust comes off with use. So you should write. Because you love it. And you miss it.

[lynnenne]

I agree! I always thought your writing was great.

[seraphcelene]

Awwww ....thank you! I totally wasn't trolling for compliments, but I will absolutely take and bashfully enjoy them. Thank you. I have a pretty bad case of imposter syndrome. Always have, I keep waiting to be found out. I also keep promising myself that I will not let it get in the way of me getting that novel written. The short stories were a nice step in that direction, but it's way past time to push on,

[seraphcelene]

I am GOING TO WRITE! You guys are awesome. I guess I really needed a little pep talk cause I'm kinda jazzed to work this weekend. *sigh* A little terrified, but totally jazzed. :)

[dlgood.livejournal.com]

Perhaps discard the sense that there is some standard you have to attain. If you're "bad" so what. The point of writing is to write.

I mean, there are standards for "good writing" but you should probably not be thinking about them while you are in the process of writing. Maybe just go *feel your words at the page* first and then worry about what you should do to polish it or turn it into something of a form you prefer.

[seraphcelene]

Haha!! You are so right and I don't know why I'm struggling with that. I keep thinking that I just need to pin my ass to a chair and start writing. Not worry about what's hitting the page, so long as i get the words out. Then I will have something to work with and polish and shine. I know this ... and yet ...

Ok! This weekend. For reals. I'm hitting Open Office with a vengeance. No excuses.