seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
I really want this novel thing to work out. I love writing and I have ideas for original pieces that I want to complete, but this is HARD! Okay, I know, it's supposed to be and, to be honest, the short pieces that I am most proud of are the ones that were a little more challenging to execute. STILL!

I've gotten further than I've ever gotten before on structuring a full-length piece. That is a good thing. I went through the 15 beats thing and I LOVED that exercise. I tried doing the fractal, but it feels like a lot of double work when combined with the beats, so maybe next time.

Currently, I'm working on creating the scene cards. I've estimated that I'll need at least 40 (probably closer to 50) scenes. It makes sense, but (again) the work! Ha!! I want to start writing already, but I understand that in the long run, creating the skeleton now will save me some time and angst later. Still ... itching to write. Not to mention there's a second novel idea creeping in at the edges of my brain. I'm trying to notate things and put it away until I get the Briar book completed. At least a first draft!

So, you're writing, where are you in the process? What are the biggest challenges thus far?
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
Outlining has never been so much fun. Working on a long-form novel and ... long form isn't my strong point. Hell, sometimes short form isn't my strong point. /self-deprecation

I've also got a wicked Vitamin D defiencey which is apparently what has been leaving me on my ass the last few months. I'm on a 50K pill once a week for the next 12 weeks. I've taken three so far and the difference in my energy levels is pretty noticeable. Who knew ...

And that gets me back to the outlining. The Briar short that was included in All This and Love under the title "this, too, like water and memory" was intended as an exploration of this character who had been meandering through my brain for the last some odd years. It mostly didn't work, but ... well, it's out there now.

Anyway, a friend's boyfriend recommended Blake Snyder's book on screenwriting, Save the Cat. Although the book can tend towards condescension and some of the principles don't translate well to how I understand novel writing, there are a few things that have been incredibly helpful in structuring the way that I think of the story so that I can move past a short-from execution and into something longer. The 15 beats is the most crucial part of the formulation, and although I doubt that all of what I'm outlining will make it into the novel, again ... structurally it has proven very helpful.

My problem tends to be I know the beginning and I know the end, but all that stuff in the middle gets muddled and I have trouble traveling the distance from A to Z. Shorter pieces mean that I'm only writing a narrow, tightly controlled portion of the story. The beats are helping me to think of the elements that I need. The Stuff that has to Happen kind of idea. Now, Snyder is a believer in formula even though you're changing the details. I'm more of a learn the rules so that you can break them properly kind of girl. As an exercise, Save the Cat works for me at this point.

There's also the Fractal/Snowflake method that [personal profile] yhlee introduced in a post, and it's also been very helpful.

Finally, I've been reading John Dufresne's The Lie That Tells A Truth. Maybe I just needed to get to this point, but for some reason all of these sources are clicking and synthesizing. The result is that I am feeling pretty excited about the project.

It's really nice to feel excited about writing again. And to feel like I can actually do it. Of course, the proof will be in the pudding. See me diving in!

Anyone else working on original things? How's it going? What's your inspiration?
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
Reading Save the Cat! and it's an interesting, perhaps useful, book on Screenwriting. Shorts being my form of choice, extending fiction into long form is challenging. There's a lot in the book that's helping. Right now, I'm working on the beats which involve mapping out the story events. It's been severely helpful! I may be able to get ahead of this thing yet!

ION, I am totally craving fats, specifically avocado and brie. Who knows?!

Bugger All

Mar. 23rd, 2015 04:09 pm
seraphcelene: (beautifully devestated)
I'm tired. Exhausted even.

CA is in the worse drought in years, a brush fire broke out today in Valencia and its supposed to hi the 90's by Thursday. WtF!

And I'm just generally tired. Trying to find corners of the day to write has proved fruitless. I can't become a better writer if I don't produce. Production requires a functioning brain cell of which i do not seem to currently have. Mostly, I think, on account of me not getting enough sleep. This is a sad state of affairs.

I am, however, reading when I can. Audiobooks have been a life saver and I am currently slogging through the apparently never-ending Outlander. It's entertaining, but there's a lot about it that I don't care for, structure-wise. Today, I leap-frogged over four discs because I'm just trying to get to the end and the story is DRAGGING! Note: when almost everything happens off-screen and gets related as an anecdote of past events, it gets bloody boring. I will, undoubtedly, leap-frog over more of the story. There are three discs to go and I only have one more hours ride to get to work tomorrow. I really can't be arsed.

Because I'm tired. And I have other things occupying my brain. Like the Sleeping Beauty-esque short that needs to be written this week if I'm to have ANY hope of submitting it for the NaNo anthology. The likelihood that it will be selected to slim, but I really just want to make the attempt at submission.
gods ...

I'm taking a nap.
seraphcelene: (beautifully devestated)
I'm stuck on my EPIK application, waiting for letters of recommendation. I really should be writing in the meantime. I finally cracked my laptop open and I have all of these unfinished pieces that I don't even remember starting:

An inter-steller Sleeping Beauty story that I just barely recall. There's a circus and a witch, and sleeping beauty has become a sideshow attraction.
She had dreamt the world into near ruin, once upon a time. That is why the man has come.

Impossibly, the start or what I remember was going to be a romance novel:
Counting stars and mistakes from last year and the year before that, and five years past makes Kat want to cry. Her eyes burn, but she hates crying. She's not a pretty crier. She is queen of the ugly face cry, so she steals herself, buries her nose into the fuzzy warmth of a heavy blanket and breathes deeply. In and out and in again. Controlled, deep, and she shakes her head to clear her eyes and the melancholy fog in her brain. Leaning her head back against the chair she goes back to counting stars, the streak of the Quarantid meteor shower, determined to enjoy it because she called out Friday just for the opportunity. And now she's sitting here, the reluctant and sleeping Lilla at her side, staring at the sky.

A million and one bits and pieces, starts and finishes to the Briar story ...
Briar dreams of Mary Angel with cellophane wings, her skeletal beetle arms and bent, too long fingers reaching and gathering. Curled beneath her wings, crouched low and hunched over, she spins silk from the regurgitated blood and viscera scooped from the body stretched at her feet.

Something about werewolves. Clay's story; it started with a birth.
He would swear, later, after the shock wore off, that she growled. A low animal sound deep in her throat right before she lunged up off the ground, her mouth wide, and snapped at his face. Her teeth clacked together hard as he jerked back. All he recalls is an impression of teeth, elongated canine, and something shifting beneath her skin, something wrong in the bones of her face.

The boy jumped back hard, slamming into the shelves behind him, a rain of bows and ribbons falling around him in a flurry of color. The woman was heavy and slow with her pregnancy and just like that she was back on floor.

*sigh* What to do?! OMG ... what to do ...
seraphcelene: (kickass zoe)
Sarah Rees Brennan has post up on Tumblr about the unfortunate response by some to her past life as a fanfic writer. It's pretty ignorant, petty stuff. I wonder if it's a jealousy thing, ignorance, or that thing that happens because people need to define categories in order to assign importance and make themselves feel better about themselves and what they do. Maybe it's a combination of all three ...

The Unfortuantely True Adventures of Sarah Rees Brennan

Then there is a very interseting follow-up post by Jennifer Lynn Barnes that, in part, seeks to explain some of the phenomena:

On fandom, parasocial relationships, and what we don't know


Feb. 24th, 2014 07:32 pm
seraphcelene: (geum jan di by espirit_serein)
Srsly! You guys, the prompts are DELICIOUS!! Go write something!!

a multi-fandom wish fulfillment ficathon
seraphcelene: (curse you villains)
Okay, this multiple online identity thing is annoying. There's me, for my real life; there's LJ, for fandom life; and there's the pen name. Why didn't I just fold the pen name into the LJ profile? It would have been easier. I am not good a this building a brand thing. Annoying ... meanwhile, who's on Tumblr? Anyone? Trying to figure it out. Not brave enough for Twitter.

This is taking way too much of my life and isn't half as fun as writing.
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
And we're totes live!

All This and Love is now available on most platforms:
Amazon, Apple iStore, Barnes & Nobles, and Kobo.

Pick up a copy, read, and share. And a review would be great!
seraphcelene: (books by gloriousbite)

I'm really excited, giddy even, to announce that my debut collection of short stories, All This and Love, is now available on Amazon in the Kindle Bookstore! It's published under a pen name, J. Libby. I'm crossing the streams here on LJ, but the RL gets to remain compartmentalized.

The collection will be available at other retailers soon. In the meantime, if you have a Kindle or a Kindle app, go download a free sample and check it out. If you like, buy it, read it, tell you friends about it, and review it!

All This and Love:
Summary: Love in many flavors takes center stage in All This and Love. From a wolf hunt in the catacombs beneath an unnamed city to the last kiss shared by a fallen angel and his immortal, human lover, love gets complicated by some of the things that go bump in the night. Explore lust, betrayal and star-crossed romance in five short stories in J. Libby's debut collection.

Check it out!

Connect with me online:

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Happy Reading!

seraphcelene: (Default)
I am really excited to say that I sold a copy of my anthology today!! OMG!!

So, for anyone who already has a Smashwords account, All This and Love is currently available.
If you don't have a Smashwords account, never fear! The official release date is Tuesday, September 24th and should be available at a couple of different online retailers including Amazon. I will let you know as soon as it goes live.

In the meantime:

All This and Love, available at Smashwords.
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
So, here I am.

I am breathing.

I went to Jamaica and got a sunburn. It's peeling. So. Not. Fun. Now, sadly, I am home. Slaving away at the job that is Hell and working on an anthology that will be self-published as an e-collection on Amazon before the month is out. It's almost done. I've got one story to finish edits on. Cover is done, back copy is done. Going through final edits one everything else starting today and through the weekend.

It's short. Five stories. I have no perspective. It feels mediocre. There is only one story that I rather like. This is not unusual for me. I NEVER like anything that I write until years later and then I can step back and say, hey, that's not so bad after all. However, everything that I've written has been fandom related. This is a different kind of difficult. It's also very embarrassing. Rather like standing up in church and flashing my underwear. So, I'll be publishing under a pen name. I'll let you know what it is when it's done.

Wow. I can't believe that I'm actually going to do this.

Let me say, though. This is obviously not a project intended for fame and money or glory. I love writing. Publishing something is on the bucket list and since my ego is in the toilet with my writing even though intellectually I know that I'm a decent writer, I figure this will guarantee me that one thing, at least, gets crossed off the list. And I've always wanted to do it. So. There you go.

LJ, I hope you're well!! I've been MIA and I am LOST in this whole social media environment. I feel adrift. *sigh*

Congrats to [personal profile] my_daroga and [personal profile] lettered and their third Hello Earth production of Star Trek in the park. I'm sure that it was awesomely amazing. I wish I could have been there.

Also, of note, I brought back coffee flavored Rum. It's way too tasty to be believed. It's orgasmic when paired with Rum Cream.

Things you know about me ... I can be such a lush. HEY! Aren't all great writers alcoholics?! Maybe I really am on my way.
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
Hey, sweethearts.

I am alive. I am breathing. Yay!

I am also writing original things.

So, I need a beta for a short fic based in Japan. So, anyone familiar with Japanese language, culture, and/or mythology would be insanely helpful right now.

I would really appreciate a solid concrit. I have a printing deadline for early next month.

Please let me know! Reply here or you can email me at seraphcelene at gmail cot com.
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
Swiped from [personal profile] lettered. Just because I am poking at an ages old Dawn-centric Christmas fic. This year I might finish it, skip the beta, call it a day, and post it. Maybe.

Pick a character I've written and I'll list the top ideas/concepts/etc I keep in mind while writing them that I believe are essential to accurately depicting them.*

- Dawn is made out of Buffy. She never ever, ever, ever forgets that.
- Because she was made from someonelse, Dawn is never sure if what she feels are her emotions or the echoes of what her sister feels.
- Dawn, even after season 7, isn't sure if she is a real person.
- Dawn loves Spike
- What Dawn doesn't know, but that I do, is that she loves him more completely than Buffy ever will. She grew up with his affection and his kindness (even though, in the beginning it was mostly just to earn brownie points with Buffy). But then he went and got a soul, got his heart broken by Buffy, and maybe in the future he really does love Dawn, after all.
- Dawn always had a crush on Xander, but will never admit that she also had a major crush on Angel. Buffy "lurved" him, so she will totally deny that she ever thought he was cute or anything.
- Joyce dying is the hardest thing that Dawn ever had to deal with. It was harder than Buffy dying. If it meant she got to keep her mom, Dawn would have preferred that Buffy had died way back in Season 1 before Dawn was a real person, but of course, she wasn't then, so the wish is irrelevant.
- Tara is Dawn's replacement mom, so, it's really like her mom died twice. Even though Buffy died twice, Dawn is still more affected by her mom dying twice.
- Dawn started doing research so that she wouldn't have to be alone after her mother died. The Scooby Gang made a habit of congregating around tables when they did research. Joining in gave Dawn a real reason to be in the room.
- Dawn dreams of her life before she was Dawn, when she was the Key. The dreams are dim and indistinct and sometimes she's convinced they're real memories and other times she thinks they're only dreams.
- Dawn will never be sure if she's a real girl, after all.
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
Pick a character I've written and I'll list the top ideas/concepts/etc I keep in mind while writing them that I believe are essential to accurately depicting them.*

*I don't think it follows that if other people don't have those concepts in mind they're inaccurately depicting them. For what it's worth.
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
Today is a day where I feel like I am the worse writer in the history of writing. I just plain, flat out suck. Not being able to get around that sucks. It's partially inspired by the brief moment of empathy I experienced while watching The Words, the other part is a result of my complete failure to write something worthwhile for an anthology that I'm supposed to contributing to.

Whatever. Right now, I suck.

In other news, Billy the Vampire Slayer. I get the reasoning as explained by David Greenwalt and Marti Noxon, but I'm not going to lie and say that I'm too keen on it. I understand the narrative intention, it's like Robin Wood taking it upon himself to beat vampire bad guys. My distaste for this particular plot is, I think, located around the assumption of the title Vampire Slayer. The gay part, I don't care. A guy fighting vampires, I don't care. A guy fighting vampires and appropriating the vampire slayer moniker I find problematic. I'm still trying to work out exactly why. It is possible it has to do with the overabundance of hero narratives that revolve around men, and how the Vampire Slayer was (for better or worse) strictly female but is now being usurped by another male hero.

It's not like I read the comics, anyway, so I really don't suppose I should care.
seraphcelene: (it mocks me)
Last year was ... it was ... and now it's finished. I didn't really do all that much writing. Picked at things and started things, but me with the finishing of things just didn't seem to happen. I don't feel like I have a muse anymore. I suppose that Agatha really took that death scene back in Crave pretty hard. But, here is what I did accomplish on the fic front, sad though it may be.

like never, and like always (BtVS/Angel)
The Law of Equivalent Exchange (BtVS)
as soon as forever is through (Boys Over Flowers)
Beloved (Star Trek: AOS)

My favorite story this year (my own): as soon as forever is through was hard to write because it was hard to hear. The dissonance between reading subtitles and listening to the cadences of the Korean language complicated my writing process. However, overall, it is the thing that I am most proud of this year. I love the language, and despite the complications, the rhythm, and the points that I tried to make about the characters and how they break.

My best story this year: as soon as forever is through

My favorite line of this year: TIE!!!!!
"Buffy thinks of Oz and how sometimes you have to leave to save your own life." - like never and like always

"Everything is the beginning of something until it's the end and there is Dawn on the floor of the bathroom dipping fingers into a puddle the impossibly dark red of black currant." - The Law of Equivalent Exchange

Story most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: I didn't write enough to judge well. But, maybe, as soon as forever is through.

Most fun story: Yeah, not so much with the fun stories.

Sexiest story: and a no, again.

Story with single sexiest moment: Nope

"Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story: No. Everything is pretty much in character, but I suppose the fact that I killed everyone off in The Law of Equivalent Exchange could count for something.

Fic that shifted my perceptions of the characters: n/a

Biggest disappointment: The Law of Equivalent Exchange. I really intended this to be a more traditional narrative, but it just kinda didn't work out that way.

Hardest story to write: like never and like always was from a gifted prompt and I struggled with it. I felt like I should have been able to just write it and get it, but the execution was a major challenge. Moving the story from my head to paper, while keeping in mind the prompt was just more difficult then I think it should have been.

Easiest story to write: The Law of Equivalent Exchange wasn't what I really wanted it to be, but the images made it to paper with astonishing ease. Maybe because I did break it up and didn't try to force a frame on it that was inorganic to the story. I dunno know.

Most unintentionally telling story: n/a

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January 2010: as soon as forever is through is based on a kdrama. I NEVER thought that would happen.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?: n/a
seraphcelene: (Default)
I've got five fic, all partially written, and refusing to be finished. The problem? Well, three of them are wandering aimlessly because I don't have an ending, and three of them are resistant to the commitment of being written down. On paper. It's annoying. It's frustrating and I don't know what to do.

I've tried outlines, summaries, character sheets, listing plot points and things that have to happen. None of it is helping. I've tried just writing and that doesn't exactly work because three of them have no clue about how they would like to end.

I ... I just have no clue. Grrr. Argh!
seraphcelene: (Default)
Holy crap!!

I'm working on a major revision/re-working of The Light Before we Land and it is a Job of Work. I knew it would be. I knew that when I asked Joy it would get way worse before it got better because Joy doesn't pull punches when it comes to beta duties. It's one of the many things that I love about her. But now, here I am with a mess of a fic that's gotten messier, but somehow better, too! All at the same time. Joy does that ... inspires me to push past what I think of as the boundaries of my own writing talent/ability. (Although, Joy, remember how I said that one time that if I attempted something as complex as The Presence of Departed Acts you should shoot me ...)

In the end, I think that I will be very proud of the finished product and that will be ten times better than I feel about the current piece of drek sitting on my harddrive.

As I'm writing and making notes, re-writing and blocking out events that have to happen, I am thinking about themes. As Joy instructed, I am trying to figure out what this fic is *really* about. (The exact same problem that I had with the initial drafts of PoDA.) Initially, it was supposed to be about Angel and Buffy, I was writing it for the IWRY Marathon. Initially, it was actually a story of place. Explicitly, the landscape of L.A. after Not Fade Away. It was supposed to tie into Thine Is, Life Is, taking us from there back to here. I wanted to see how we got to that fucked up place in TiLi. Hence the second part which was all about Buffy and, as Joy put it so beautifully, her apocalypse of the mind.

What I've discovered is a series of layers of themes and trying to tease it apart and make it make sense without being obvious about it is killing me!

I went back to the working title for this piece, so it's been renamed One Thousand Kisses Deep and this story is about parallels, reflections and memories. It's a story of mirrors. It's about the Id, Ego, and the Super Ego. It's about lost girls who never manage to be found. What if Dorothy, Alice and Wendy were all heroines of tragedies?

On the outskirts it's about Angel, and B/A. It's about sisters and lovers and twins. It's about power out of control and anchors and love.

I don't know how all of this is going to turn out, but I have hopes that it won't be as bad as the first version. I have hopes that, like, The Presence of Departed Acts, I will learn to love it and appreciate it. Even if I cut out half of everything it's about and leave only the tip of the gdamn fucking iceberg. Whatever it turns out to be, I have to say that I'm glad to be writing again. Six months is too long. I missed this. I missed it like a breathing.


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